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The sadistic Goddess Maya Loux

The sadistic Goddess Maya Loux Maya is a sadist. I’m slowly learning that. It’s odd to me though. Thinking back in the time I’ve known her she hasn’t been that sadistic towards me. Like, she never really made me feel hurt. Sure, she’s coaxed me into doing some humiliating things like sucking on a smoked […]

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Thoughts on long term denial

I know You’ve wanted to keep a record to show how our D/s relationship develops over time. Blogging here like this instead of emailing You might be a way to do that. It forces me out into the public to express my thoughts and feelings where anyone could read them. Scary and humiliating. These things […]

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Maya’s alarm clock, or how I stopped oversleeping

My chastity cage is like Maya’s alarm clock. It’s small and tight, and sometimes wakes me up early in the morning when I need to use the bathroom. I wake up with a raging erection pushing the skin through the bars of the cage. The ache is hard to describe. I pull on my bathrobe […]

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Subliminal chastity training

Just an update, Maya has me in chastity again. We took a break for a while because I ran into some health issues and other real-life-getting-in-the-way type things. At this point I haven’t had an orgasm since August 20th, or 21 days. She teased me mercilessly for about an hour Saturday night before locking me […]

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Internet controlled shock collar: trials with the Pavlock

A while back I mentioned to Maya it’d be really cool if there was a way she could remotely shock me over the internet. I mean, come on, what Mistress wouldn’t enjoy having that power? After much research I couldn’t find a commercially available product that does this. I found a couple cases where someone […]

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Chastity is no walk in the park

Chastity really isn’t a walk in the park, as Goddess Maya and I have been discovering. We’ve been experimenting with enforced orgasm control for a few months now. We added chastity to it back in June. I’d previously worn a chastity cage but for no longer than maybe 4 days continuously. We’re trying to do […]

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Domme’s Have Feelings Too: Communication is Key

I’m writing this on a “how to have a healthy D/s relationship” sort of tack. Communication is extremely important, especially about limits, fears, and deep-seated emotions. If you’re a dominant you’ve got to be ready and able to encounter some of the deeper, darker corners of your sub’s mind. If you’re a sub you have […]

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Mistress Maya Loux rewired my sexuality

Goddess Maya Loux has been progressively training me to be a better slave for Her over the last few months. My training began with re-orienting my sexuality around Her. At this point I no longer get erections from watching porn or looking at other women. Porn doesn’t interest me sexually anymore, and I find myself […]

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Chastity: real life enforced chastity online

Goddess Maya and I have been engaging in enforced chastity now since about the middle of May. It’s been a learning experience, I think, for both of us. For anybody who’s fantasized about chastity I highly rec ommend you try it, but only after reading this. I’ve experimented before, but only for a few days […]

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